Saoirse Ronan as Agatha in The Grand Budapest Hotel (2014, dir. Wes Anderson)
In between being crushed again for your ignorance towards me and expecting otherwise, I have lost you as a friend from this distance now. Maybe you lost me, I’d very much like to feel so but the one who cares less always emerges unscathed from any damage.
"I am not the first person you loved.
You are not the first person I looked at
with a mouthful of forevers. We
have both known loss like the sharp edges
of a knife. We have both lived with lips
more scar tissue than skin. Our love came
unannounced in the middle of the night.
Our love came when we’d given up
on asking love to come. I think
that has to be part
of its miracle.
This is how we heal.
I will kiss you like forgiveness. You
will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms
will bandage and we will press promises
between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat
on your skin. I will write novels to the scar
of your nose. I will write a dictionary
of all the words I have used trying
to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you.
And I will not be afraid
of your scars.
I know sometimes
it’s still hard to let me see you
in all your cracked perfection,
but please know:
whether it’s the days you burn
more brilliant than the sun
or the nights you collapse into my lap
your body broken into a thousand questions,
you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.
"Date someone who gives you the same feeling of when you see your food coming at a restaurant"
"The scariest part about letting someone in is that they could take one look inside of you and never come back."
I believe in karma, maybe you are mine. I’d like to try once (more) this time.
"If people bring so much courage to this world the world has to kill them to break them, so of course it kills them. The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry."
"I had almost believed
That I had made it -
I was learning
To breathe and smile
But the storm raging inside me
Got too strong
And I found I was drowning once more
In my own thoughts."
But no don’t be mistaken boy, it’s the idea of falling in and out of love that depresses me, that steals away a part of my heart each time it might possibly happen. For it was never meant to be.
You, are a reminder of the vulnerability in us all buy also the fact that all humans disappoint. Till then, my friend.